I feel like I haven’t really posted on here in a while. I suppose there are many reasons for that. For one, I’ve been working my butt off nonstop training to open a new coffee shop in Seattle. I’m working for this great company that gives all of its profits to ending human trafficking, while at the same time being a really fun, creative, and quality environment. This is the kind of opportunity that I was looking for when I moved out here all the way from Tennessee. Really I was just looking for a place that would pay me a decent wage for once and treat me with respect, but I found something even better!
It’s been hard being so far away from my best friends but at the same time I’m much happier in general. I still have my moments when I’m feeling really down but it doesn’t last for too long. One huge reason that I had to move away and why I haven’t been on here much is that I was constantly reminded of things that really hurt me and made me feel sick inside. I dealt with a lot of bullshit last year and I really needed to get away from that self pity and the sad memories. I’ve struggled and grown a lot in this past month alone. And I’ve found so much love here. It’s weird going from being at diy shows almost every night and hanging out with people that are mostly “anti-Christian” and then working with a bunch of people who are almost all Christians and feeling the same sense of community. I’m not really against either group I just think it’s interesting and furthers my belief that it doesn’t matter what anyone’s spiritual beliefs (or lack of) are, those things should be personal and not a basis of judgement for someone else. As long as someone is a decent human being and treats others with genuine respect and kindness they are okay with me. That being said, Everyone there is great and I’m glad to belong somewhere but I still haven’t really had a chance to go out and meet any people yet. I absolutely love one or two people that I work with and really hope to become good friends with them outside of work and hang out with them even though they live a bit far from me, maybe they have more cool friends that I can meet too! It’s weird having to go home most of the time after work and not really have any other place to go but I’m sure I’ll figure that out eventually.
Did I mention I haven’t smoked anything since November 4th? I’m pretty proud of myself and I think my body is too. I feel better all around!
Anyways, long story short I just wanted to let a few people on here know how I am doing and that I probably won’t be on here much anymore because I want to continue progressing and not get bogged down by my demons. Maybe I’ll create a new tumblr soon or something and share positive thoughts and some of my projects with the world… But until then….
Goodbye, for now!